For someone special
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one that has been opened for us. Don't go for looks ; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. Don't count the years -- count the memories........... Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take; but by the moments that take our breath away!
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Some Where Out There
I find it so strange how things are right now.
That way she will always stay beautiful to me.
And that is all I ever want to remember.
Currently I'm….
Currently I'm....
. feeling a lot more lost than I ever was
. feeling bad for screwing up
. feeling paranoid over some things which I should never had indulged in
. feeling jealous about things which others could get and that I couldnt
. feeling a little more appreciative towards my parents
. feeling broke as I have to save bout 10k to visit my dreamland by end of this year
. missing her alot
. making amendments to ethics which I should have from the beginning
. quite lazy to layan cept for those who I hold dear within
. thankful to a certain someone for being there
. confuse over petty unnecessary issues which I know it's a waste of time
. not really as hyped up for beer as I was before
. ranting and bitching alot these days
. getting mood swings easily
. surprisingly loving my life though I'm feeling really lost
. in a state where I crave for more and more attention
. noticing and learning more about myself
. missing KL
. thankful and I love you heaps!
I'm blessed
With the amount of pricks and childish pussies out there I can safely state that I'm satisfied with the circle of special individuals who truly mean the world to me. Not saying that i'm more mature than most, but I really can't indulge in convos regarding petty matters anymore. It annoys the fuck out of me I swear. But it's never a matter to be pointing fingers at anyone but it just comes naturally I guess. With the age or something.
Tonight i realised a few things:
I don't like feeling like a 3rd wheel
I miss getting trashed and being happy
I miss that someone caring about about me
I miss coming home to someone
I miss someone telling me that they love me
I miss feeling appreciated
I miss someone sharing what i love
I hate coming home to an empty bed
I hate realising that i am alone
I hate how i have to pretend like nothing happened
I hate pretending to not feel the way i feel
I hate knowing that it'll never happen again.
I hate how small this world is.
I…
I AM: not who I want to be.
I WANT: to be good at what I do best.
I WISH: to turn back time.
I HATE: over- enthusiastic/bright/chirpy/annoying people.
I MISS: you when you are not around.
I FEAR: losing what I love.
I HEAR: discreetly conversations around me.
I WONDER: who I will spend the rest of my life with.
I REGRET: not having studied harder.
I AM NOT: the quiet guy people perceive me as.
I DANCE: to trance/house music only.
I SING: in my head.
I CRY: Never.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: polite or patient.
I MAKE MADE WITH MY HANDS: Stars.
I WRITE: what I fail to express in speech.
I CONFUSE: many people.
I NEED: to be more motivated.
I SHOULD: start saving.
I START: all hyped up about something.
I FINISH: having felt I must have lost something along the way.
I LOVE: being in love.
I REMEMBER: both the happy and sad things.
Smile
Wanting is who you are
“Wanting is knowledge. Someone asks us what we want and we say, Oh, I don’t know. I don’t know what I want. But the truth is we do! We do know what we want! It’s just (isn’t it?) that what we want isn’t the thing we ought to want or want to want or are supposed to want or think we want. It’s what we want. It’s the potato we want in a store full of ripe oranges. It’s the comic book on a shelf full of Shakespeare — and why are we supposed to not want that? Because wanting is the deepest story of who we are; wanting is who we are more than getting. Getting can be fate or accident: You wanted to be an actress but were forced to be a stenographer because that was what was available. Getting can be an accident for which we are not responsible. Getting can be circumstance. But wanting is pure. Wanting is who you are.”